these piling assumptions and expectations
just make me want to break them all,
to prove failures,
and be a human again.
do you understand?
and my head hurts for no reason,
my heart races for some anxiety i don't understand,
and i'm disintergrating from inside out.
those stupid nightmares signify omens
if i myself isn't one yet,
freak, why is this so hard to pass by.

and no this is not emo, because emo for me comes random.
it's just something, something i will conquer before it does.
at least i still have the ability to laugh, with or without sanity.

am still alive at 5:24 AM