hopefully i'll have fruitful days ahead,
before the school can get a grip on me
and everything starts to close in.
even if it's just being a potato couch,
or hanging around or...nothing.
for now, that's fruitful enough.

and oh, happy birthday mark!
though you wont read this. haha



didn't feel that it's an end, but more like a start for a new round of failures. can't help but think if i've been focusing too much on things i shouldn't. but isn't it the only way to get there? what if i decide to deviate my attention and end up losing everything? am i rambling again?

am still alive at 4:06 AM



between anode and cathode,
elizabeth and uma,
real and imaginary roots,
credit crunch and liquidity trap,
and the massacre of my brain cells
i am finding something uhh.. which i dont know what it is yet.

am still alive at 5:03 AM



given 24hours, there's plenty everyone wants to achieve.
but if there's hundred times the amount of time a day, would you still accomplish these agendas or would you wait till the next day?
still, time is too fast, i barely have time to see what's going on.
maybe if you look around once in a while, you will gain more than staring at the little words on papers.
and more often than not, those words just don't want to come out,
and i only have what was too good, too painful for now.

and i ramble as a excuse for a break, to change into a different persona
now i'm back to my 24hours.

am still alive at 7:04 AM



rely not on His blessings,
but place trust and faith in He Himself.
the thorns in life is a reminder not to emphasize on flesh, but on spiritual.
make sense?

life's not bad,
-the stayover is a productive hysteria
-outings are much looking-forward-to-ed
-i hope the books see me as their best friends
-sleeping is a bliss
-sleeping is really a bliss
and Eighteen is an apprehension.

am still alive at 3:10 AM