The little girl wants to cry
the brave souls told her to fight
to keep on fighting despite the bleakness
The little girl wants to cry
the emos said she is very less pathetic than them
and has less rights to tears
The little girl wants to cry
Others just look on and laugh
at appropriate moments to escape awkward silence
The little girl wants to cry
through the night
but what's the use when every dawn's
Hope is always lost on every night

she cried anyway.

am still alive at 4:32 AM



this is so painful
please stab me.

am still alive at 7:22 AM



the sky summons its darkest clouds tonight
and the oceans roar into my ears
the greenery is but a vast and deep hole
and the ground threatens to swallow me up any moment
there is nothing behind me,
yet i know i always managed to walk out of here
there is nothing in front,
i cannot fathom why i want to take the risk anyway
when i can just hop into the waters and happily drown
or just stay put and let time engulf me completely
and even better, close my eyes and vanish
but no, geraldine is just all alone with Work.
the texts fail to show her identity like Uma's
or convince her the importance of marriage like Charlotte's
neither did the direction vectors toss her to any hopeful direction
maybe she needs to verify if she is parallel to doom, intersecting with misery or skew wrt. life.
and uh, she is delirious and sadly alive.

am still alive at 4:54 AM



blogger is problematic
my printer is problematic
problems.

and post valentine's day,
i love all my friends to bits (:
friends, you are all strong enough to pull through everything with the empowerment of love.

and though replying to tags now would be utmost outdated, and people wouldn't probably remember what they tagged, i will still do it anyway.
Anonymous1: but you dont have flu now girl! haha but i still love you la
Gil: ...
Suhui: love love!
Mel: :D takecare!
rA: hi hi hi hi hi ....okay tired alrdy, let's switch to other trademarks which we can use, haha
sangie: AHHH, i miss you! come back to school soon babe!
Anonymous2: haha, i have no idea how you managed to link to this place. must be you and your huge biceps. LOL
Joel: happy valentine's day to you too!

moodswings are normal, i think i have rationalised this phenomenon.
but there are alot of triggers, which i have yet rationalise
so i will continue to take the abuses and assaults.
and i apologize for those who have to bear with my rapid change of moods, just ignore me while i'm at it.
and there're moments which i prefer silence (yes, amazing for someone who ostensibly cannot stop talking)
it's just...oh gosh, am i undergoing change of identity?
oh what crap.

am still alive at 4:23 AM