i'm an individual
entitled to myself,
me.

wasn't any selfishness
but from the look of things,
like hello,
i'm not subjected to
your schedule
your major plans
your appeals
because for one thing,
you didn't listen to my reply
even though you asked

do i look like i don't need it.
while i'm all shrivelled inside
tormented, demented,
i don't waste others time.
but because of that,
i don't have much myself.
all i'm asking for is...

forget it.
it's just me.

am still alive at 7:39 AM



not full blast.
if you invest everything into something
so that there is so much things after it,
what if it doesn't happen the way you
dreamt it to be for like gazillion years.

random.
home.

am still alive at 6:33 AM



add more control
sprinkle some optimism
don't turn off the lights for the path
take a few deep breaths
smile for the flashing cameras
if you are not doing this for yourself
do it for the sake of doing it
is it time to go offstage?

im starting to be irritating,
to myself.
dumbass.
i give you one more chance.

am still alive at 5:30 AM



crazycrazycrazy

i skip skip skip to swensens on thurs...
just sitting around and laugh and eat

hop hop hop to badminton on fri...
alright fav sport! great company! and imbalanced arms..
im already hungry for the next session.

jump jump jump to town with val later that night...
talk talk talk and laugh gazillions, shit the phototaking is seriously damn funny

roll roll roll to serena's house on sat for yummy lunch and pool...
next fav sport! few company but still :D fun nonetheless

(sleep) rush rush rush to units midautumn bbq...
units yay, the bag/purse/idontknowwhatitiscalled is cool :D
it was fun,
i want to spit ice again -.-















when all comes to an end, sleep can be the next best alternative and that's my sunday.

now it's sprinting again,
dang i can't see anything ahead.

am still alive at 3:06 AM



i was with the ability,
notably nervous
but warmed up
at the starting line.
the starter's gun fires
so the race began and
ended.

i don't know why i didn't run.

am still alive at 4:09 AM



do you know
when you really want to/need to/must cough
and you try your best to hold it in
because you have been doing it for godknowshowmanytimes
...
...
you will
...
cough.

try it. but of course we all have better things to do
when we are not coughing.
how interesting.

the engine is slowly fixed.
driver needs cough syrup.

am still alive at 8:07 AM



now is NOT the time to be
weak and sickly.
but...
now is NOT really the time to
yearn for sleep and ache like crazy
but...
and now is not the time to blog
uh but...

i know, i know.
i need some external current to recharge.

am still alive at 6:09 AM